But...

How did I get here

Who led the way

I fell laughing in your arms

Only just yesterday

I’m in this cobweb place

It gets scary in the night

I can see you but

You are standing on the other side

There is sunlight

But it’s not the good kind

There are stars

But a dark scary cloud behind.

I try to reach you

But the doors are all locked

I can see you through the glass,

Unmoved , standing on the rock

I try to find the keys

Bang the doors for hours

I try to break the windows

Try pulling at the bars

I sit down and cry

I have lost all my guard

My heart is up and pumping but my brain is all charred

I won’t lose hope

My efforts will never cease

I will keep my search on

Till I find those keys

But for that there is one thing

I definitely need

I need you to keep saying

That you believe in me

Gun to my head

Gun to my head baby, not yours

Please just accept me with all my flaws
I would do anything to get one look
Show me some love for all the time you took

If you could just care for a minute I would heal

If you could just hold me for while you’ll feel
My racing heart beats trying to catch up with you
Spare me a glance baby don't be so cruel

I’m laying my heart right here on your porch

All day all night I wait, baby have some remorse

To have a moment in your soft warm arms

To swing you around at the big prom dance
To shower you with all the love in the world
Give me a chance to show that you're my girl

I have done flowers n chocolates n every nice thing

I have done so much n yet you don't see my suffering
If not a bucketful have at least a tear to shed
Devoid of your love m dying, gun to my head

reason to die

I look around, it's about time
From around the corner comes my sunshine
She walks around with her head bowed down
I know she feels lonely in this crowded town.

She looks at me, she gives me a smile
A smile that never really reaches her eyes
I see her clinging on to her books so tight
I can see how much she is weeping inside

I see her eyes are red from crying all night
Her wet pillow must even cringe in fright
She holds her her heart so tight, it withers
A love song play and she feels the jitters

She knows not I love her so truly
I can pick up the pieces and fix her up duly
I can calm her soul down, I can give her the peace
If not teach her to love, push her to trust at least

What was once a garden of daisies
What shone brighter than the stars at night
I can't tell you what's become of it now
It's all a very pitiful sight

It's like she's trying to kill her soul,
Nurturing the ugly big dark hole
But I try and I try
To see that twinkle in her eye
And one day she'll see my love for her
And lose all the reasons to die

just like that

(on the tunes of "we are never ever.. by Taylor Swift)

I remember when I saw you for the first time

White shirt, jeans and your eyes met mine

I don't know what in them I drowned

And you walked away without a second glance... Ha!

I wanted to become your prom date

But you didn't even notice i was there

And I never came and spoke to you forget

About coming and telling you how I felt.. Bummer!

You waved at me the other day

And the butterflies started up a chase

And my smile didn't diasppear for days

And I finally gathered up courage.. Yes!

I came up to you, told you my name

Wished you "good morning" and you wished me the same

And you asked me to come see your game

And my heart just flipped, it went totally insane

I saw you on the field in your shoerts

And you looked so much cuter than i thought

The game started , flying in came the ball

And it hit my eye, that hurt a lot.. Ouch!

You left the game and rushed me to the nurse

In your arms I even forgot i was hurt

I just rested my head on your shoulder

And I wished for the moment to stay forever

You sat while got a pirate eye

You said sorry for the hundredth time

I didn't say a word, I just smiled

You came closer and I knew this moment was mine.

ooo oo oo oo ooh

You kissed me and the world stopped moving

& ooo oo oo oo ooh

You held me and your touch was loving

ooo oo oo oo ooh

It felt so perfect, it felt so right

& ooo oo oo oo ooh

Just like that love happened this time  :-)

chessboard (song)

Standing in the white space

Baby, I'm a blackhead

Round on the top

They like to call me Ted

I se you everytime leaning on to the bishop

Trying to catch my glimpse from behind the pawn..

I see you and i know it from the twinkle in your crown

I'll come and get you one day now come on lose the frown

I will take a while though 

The rook is on my watch now

You be in your fortress

The king will save you somehow

Baby you're a braveheartI know I am just a pawn

The rooks and knights make fun of me

And I'm looked down upon

But the twinkle in your crown gives me strength to go on

I'll skip the knight's hop and skip

I'll hide from the bishop's tricks

I'm taking the leap and I'm coming for you

The rook is glaring at me

But there's nothing he can do

I am just a pawn baby

I don't know if I'll see the dawn baby

I don't have a plan bu I'm getting closer

I look around and there are no signs of danger

In a few steps here i am right in front of you

I can become a hero, I can smash the king down

I see the horror in his stance

Yes I see it now

But i don't want to be a hero on the battlefield

To be the twinkle of your crown

Is what my heart needs

So I have to bring you down

I have to do it now

I bring you down and you go rolling in the sea

The king gives me his best hit 

And rolls me down with theee

And finally we meet 

Finally it's all over

I was just a pawn baby

But now I'm the twinkle of your crown baby

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(BASED ON THE SONG "LITTLE BIT OF YOU IN EVERYTHING " BY RASCAL FLATTS)

I have a very old list of wishes here

I wished to see tooth fairy appear

I hid my tooth under my pillow and

Tried to see her squinting through my hand

I had a wish that I could touch the moon

And when dad said that will b very soon

I would point at the white moon and say

I'm gonna wave to u from there one day

I don’t want to regret that I never wished for silly things

I had a wish that I could lick d clouds

I would stare at them on my days out

I wanted to eat that big ice cream

N wen I did, it became my favorite dream

I wanted to write to the president

And tell him of the thoughts in my head

And wen I took a pen n paper to write them

I ended up doodling instead

I don’t want to regret that I never wished for stupid things

No no no I don't want to forget that life is short for every being

Tel me one thing, will u get back the time u spent being sad n low

Tel me one thing, wont u rather make happy someone u love

broken shoe (song)

I had walked with you for miles

Hopped skipped and jumped with u

We took with us snow sunshine and raindrops too

At the bend in the road when I couldn't take the turn

That is when I made up this excuse

I can’t walk anymore 'cos I have a broken shoe

While walking back I took a different path

Hoping I won’t b affected by the aftermath

I walked through blossoming gardens

I played with butterflies

Heard stupid break up stories from my guys

But nothing seemed to distract me

My boss threatened to sack me

But all this while I looked down at my perfectly good shoe

N that’s when I realized I was deeply in love with u

I ran back to the road

I searched crazily for u

I plucked out all the roses

But nothing smelled like u

I know you are here

And when I finally find you

I’ll beg and plead to u

To give me a chance to sew up my broken shoe