what's happening!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today, I’m feeling so weird

Even the round sun looks absurd.

The trees are dancing

To the tunes of my i-pod

The birds are singing

Love songs. Oh my God!

The stray dogs now don’t

Look as ugly as they used to

The sweepers sweep the road

Like it’s the best thing to do

The leaves of the gulmohar

Look like hanging hearts

The walk towards home

Seems like miles apart

The bill of my mobile

Was never so high

I was never so sad

While saying good-bye

I can’t help looking

At my red nails

Today, boring colours also

Don’t look pale.

All my books are stacked

Beside my pillow

And I’m talking on the phone

In a voice very low.

My parrot has started

Whistling in tune.

The stars wink back

As I gaze at the moon.

I have started cuddling

My blue teddy bear

I hear every weather report

Saying, “Love is in the air!”

In the sticker on the mirror

The greetings on the wall

The drawings on the door and

In the chandelier in the hall

I see one face

That laughs and smiles

And every time I blush

Mom keeps wondering why!

All this is happening

Since I met you

It’s all your fault

But I’m enjoying this too!

Is this love

Or just another crush?!

I’m so confused thinking,

And here, again I blush!

someone that's you

When you are feeling low

What’s next is that you don’t know

When life seems like a big dark hole

When there’s silence in your heart and soul

All that you need to do

Is believe in someone that’s you

When you think it’s over and you sit back and cry

When you dig in your pillow finding answers to how and why

When you stare at the ceiling and all you see is black

When you peep in your heart

And it wants the joys back

All that you need to do

Is believe in someone that’s you

When you feel the blues and there’s no rainbow on the move

When you feel you’re all alone

When you feel your hopes have torn

All that you need to do

Is believe in someone that’s you

When you see thorns in your way

When you sit idle night and day

When god seems to have turned deaf

When there’s absolutely nothing left

All that you need to do

Is believe in someone that’s you

When you’re crossing the hard path

And you find no hands to hold

When in the summer heat

You are sad and cold

All that you need to do

Is believe in someone that’s you

When after writing for many hours

The pages are still blank

When joys and smiles are far

And sorrows around you flank

All that you need to do

Is believe in someone that’s you

It’s you and your shadow always walking together

And it’s better that you know that helpings hands are not forever

It’s you who can make a better you

Instead of blaming others for what they told you to do

Someone who’s responsible for whatever you do

Let that person only be you

‘Cos even if the tears blame you

You’ll know the smiles have come your way because you let yourself lead you.

sad endings

I see something is stuck in my drawer

When I pull it I see it is your letter.

And that brings back memories gushing

Like a silent river after a rain shower

Like a small dew drop blooms a flower.

I start reading each word slowly

Each word brings a memory to glory.

The night when I was getting too bored

I said I wanted to have something cold.

You came all the way with an ice-cream

And we had eaten it at the window.

The day I wanted to go for the movie

It was house full and nowhere else I wanted to be

You bought two tickets from the person out there

Which cost you as much as your pocket money.

The day I was out with cold

My parents were out, as I had told

You came over to make me a cup of coffee

While you were supposed to study geography.

While writing the paper

When my pen went out of ink

You were asking everyone for it

And were blamed of copying.

Just before my exams

When I lost my dearest kin

You gave me so much confidence

So that i could win.

While on a date

When someone ogled at me

You punched him so hard,

I doubt he could see.

On my birthday

When I was waiting for the first call,

There was a knock on the door

And I tiptoed to the hall

I opened the door to find a present

I picked it and turned only to get a surprise pleasant

You and our friends shouted, “Happy birthday!”

My parents joined in too

Making me feel all happy and gay.

You gifted me a teddy bear on valentine’s

I had hidden it in my locker

But now it’s all mine.

We did chat that night

And next morning I received a letter from you.

Which said you had to leave

And that you wont come back very soon

And it’s better that I forgot the times

We spent together

The nights when we dined together

That one letter

Put it all to end

For better I guess but too much it meant.

I keep the letter back which said good-bye

And I close the drawer with a sigh

Knowing that you are happy

With someone, somewhere

In the corner of my heart

You’ll always be there.

And you’ll be remembered like this,

Again sometime somewhere.

now i trust nobody

As I sit with a pen and paper in my hand

I think of no one but the person in me

I am no statue of clay and sand

But a human with flesh and bones, as you see.

As I step every morning outside the door

With happiness and confidence all rearing to go

I don’t wonder while I am waiting for the bus

If sum one is staring at me from head to toe

But being carefree is not what I should be doing

Because of the horrifying news the paper is blowing

And every time I read of rape or harassment

My brain gets a jolt and I think till I bend

We the weaker sex, in this patriarchal society

Will we always be treated like dirt on a shoe?

However high posts I hold in this world

In corporate, in politics, in professions well-known

At the end of the day when I hold the piece of paper again

I see myself right at the bottom of the game

Is this what I get for looking good?

Is this what you do if my skirt is shorter than it should?

Is this how I should feel when I am alone?

Am I ever going to be able to laugh and not mourn?

Is trust such a feeble word that you can break it anytime you please?

If my guardian is doing this to me

Should I stop believing in angels?

Am I always to be blamed,

Because he overpowered me?

Because I couldn’t stop him from looking at me?

Because I was friends with him

And lay my trust on him?

Will I ever be able to live peacefully

Without the haunts of the demons who are free?

Is there ONE person who’ll tell us

What wrong have we done?

We are born as girls, is that our crime?

Or are we just objects for you to have fun?

Now I trust nobody in my life

And I live a list of “do-nots”

Sometimes I even think that

I have lost faith in you O Lord.

i love you

Lying on the bed,

Staring at the ceiling

I wish I could tell you

How I am feeling.

Every morning I pledge

To tell you what I feel

And every evening I apologise

To myself for breaking the deal

The moment you appear,

I travel to a completely different world.

With fairies and fantasies

Which seem so real.

When you call out my name

I feel as if I am reborn

And I wonder if you

Think about me when I’m gone.

When you give me surprises,

There’s no chance I leave cloud 9

I love to ask you,

“How are you”

Just to hear that lovely,

“I am fine”

I still have the flower

From the bouquet you gave me

Your fragrance still surrounds it

So I’ve kept it safely to let it be

When you call me at night

For some query or doubt

I talk like a canary

Telling you all you u want to know about

When you praise me

In front of others

I feel like receiving

An award at the Oscars

When you say

I look beautiful,

Every cell and tissues

In me feels wonderful.

When I match

My steps with yours

I wish I could

Walk like that for hours.

When you hold my hand while crossing

When I don’t eat and you start bossing

I feel like a kid

And act like one in that bid

The first rain drop

I shared with you

I still feel it with

Every drop of dew.

When you dropped me home that night,

And I was scared to go upstairs,

Your smile gave me all the strength

To answer the “who, why and where”

All these things I remember

Throughout the night till dawn

With a hope I say, “I love you”

Before the day has passed and gone

i am waiting

I saw you in my dream and feel in love again

I know you’ll come one day and just take me away

In every new face, I see you smiling at me

And it gives me all the strength to be willing as a bee.

Every moment passes by in your thoughts and memories

I know you are struggling your way so it keeps me all worries

Every moment of pain slashes down my hope

My heart says you’ll come and I know I have to cope

I know it’s not easy, a dreadful path to walk on

To cross the seas, the mountains but my love will keep you strong.

I see my bruises and wonder how you will react

The scars have marred my body but on my heart there’s no impact

My heart, my mind, my soul I have given it all to you.

So even if they kill me I’ll still remain in you.

I am waiting for the day when I hear you say, “Let’s go”

And I’ll just follow like a shadow to be loved again like before.

happy valentine's day

Happy Valentine ’s Day

My stars say I’ll meet my love today

So I leave from home with an anxious heart

Hoping to meet him, but not miles apart.

At the cafe I see you sitting with

A book in hand taking a coffee sip

I sit at a table from where I can see you

Engrossed in the book called “P.S. I Love You”

We are the only loners in the cafe teeming with couples

The waiter comes for the order and I say, “Frappe with chocolate scoops double.”

Then I look in the mirror to adjust my hair

And just then you see me and give a friendly stare

I give you an awkward smile

And curse myself after that for a while

We get our orders at the same time

You start sipping yours while I stare at mine

I am lost in my own world when I hear a “Hi”

And I’m pleasantly surprised

But try my best to hide.

I offer you to join me,

Glad that you weren’t waiting for some other she!

We start talking and then there’s no end

I talk frantically as my excitement has no bend.

I realise you are 3 years elder to me

But that doesn’t deter me from telling you all about me.

After some time, we realise,

We have missed out on something

And wish each other “Happy Valentine’s Day”

When the waiter brings the bill.

I look at him scornfully

But you don’t notice that, thankfully!

You start moving, leaving your book behind

I fetch it for you and a note falls from inside

I pick it up and read the “red heart” note

It says, “Happy Valentine’s Day,

I hope you read this today

I’ve been waiting for this moment

For, like more than, 6 months

To be with you, t talk with you

To see you smile at least once.”

I look up at your anxious eyes

Hoping to hear something,

Before the moment dies

We stare at each other

For I don’t know how long

And I realise, eyes can express

More than words of any song.

We walk along filled with joy

You buy me a pink rose and

Cupid whispers’ “Cute boy!”

I thank my stars for being so kind

We lost our hearts to each other

And are at loss of thoughts from the mind

After walking for some time,

We sit on a bench

I rest on your shoulder

Hoping the day never ends

On facebook, yesterday, I wrote, “Oops! No valentine!”

And today I’ll write, “Finally I found the one who’ll always be mine..........”