heartbreak kid

I am the heartbreak kid

Newly born in town

Unaware of those clumsy feelings

Which keep bringing me down.

You said those words

& they hit like a bullet

Pierced through my heart

& tears were all set.

You kept asking if I’m fine

I kept lying, faking a smile.

I know it wasn’t easy for you

Then why did you ever have to?

I wet my pillow & wake up with a start

Thinking it’s a bad dream

But, “No, it’s not” says my heart.

Trudging along I met my friends

Even their best advices could not put an end.

The worst part was seeing you each day

Unable to forget you

Unable to hate you

Knowing not what to do,

Since I am the heartbreak kid

Newly born in town unaware of these clumsy feelings

Which keep bringing me down.

With the dawn of dusk,

I resolve to get over you

And the morning brings back everything

All that I had dumped away too.

While flowers prick like thorns

Love songs thud like car horns.

I keep myself going

Thinking this will be over soon

But my dreams claim the opposite,

That I’ll love you till doom.

You’ve giving me no reason to hate

Making things tough, a dreadful fate.

I am the heartbreak kid

It has been ages since I was born.

I still get those clumsy feelings

And I wonder when they’ll be gone.

To the life inside me

A s I strolled in the garden leaning against blossoming trees

I closed my eyes and heard the rumble of the water and humming of the bees.

Having walked for long as I sat near the fountain,

The reflection in the water reminded me of the joy

As tall as a mountain.

I saw my growing body as each day passed,

My bundle of joy was coming but it won’t last

I felt you growing inside me,

Such a lovely feeling it is

I wish I could keep you inside me

Oh! This is just bliss!

My child! Look at these lilies, the roses & daisies.

Can you hear the birds calling out to their babies?

Once you start seeing this world with your own tiny eyes,

I will not be there, but my baby, don’t ever cry.

For, they’ll love you a lot.

Even more than I can.

Caring will be your mother

And a great father will be that man.

Every time that I think of the moment they’ll cut the cord

It tears my heart and shatters me, Why oh why, my lord?

So easily people advice,

“Mary, this is the way of life.”

I’m giving you up for selfish needs,

Oh butcher, kill me with your knife

This isn’t as easy, as I had thought it would be.

I should now return to lord ‘cos anger is creeping in me.

You are holding on to my heart beats and once you are out

I’ll surrender to my Lord so will never have to doubt,

As to who caressed you inside her and then met a solemn death.

All your prayers my Lord will answer but this will always be a secret.