I miss those days when I used to play
With mud and rain and sand and clay,
When I didn't have to bother
And freely on the grass I would Lay.
When wounds used to heal with dettol
And the pain was momentary and then nothing at all
When scars were not a matter of worry
When maggi and chips were meals and not vegetable curry.
When my doll got married to my best friend's doll
When I tried to clean after scribbling on the wall
When hide and seek was the ritual game
When i wagged my finger and said, "i will tell your name!"
When i was hit by the ruler for talking in class
When birthday parties were incomplete without the masks
When summer vacations meant lots of play & cartoon network
When I would say m busy cleaning my doll house when mom called from work
When complaing to the teacher was the easiest way out
When I would give away my secrets without having any doubts
When all I had to do was bite my tongue when dad yelled
When dad smiled as for the 1st time from my bike i fell
All these tings I miss now
And one ting I would say
Noting in my life has ever happened
That can match up to my childhood days!!!

NOT WITHOUT YOU

I'm lying here all helpless,
Lately, my life has become a huge mess.
I lied to you which I shouldn't have
'Cos it ruined whatever we had.

I was a fool to think that you will find some one else
And that i'll watch you drifting away in wedding bells
It's not like i didn't know what you mean to me
But now I know every breath without you is difficult for me.

How stupid I was to think you would bear it all
And yes my plan was a big flop
I deprived myself and u of all the togetherness
But I know your love for me is nothing less

I'm here waiting for you fighting all the devils
And you are rushing your way knowing every moment kills (me)
My eyes are stuck to the door
And I'm getting closer to god more and more
But one thing is for sure, my heart says that too,
I'm not going away till I see you,
No honey, not without you.

YOU LOVE ME TOO

Talking to you every single night
Losing my senses when you are in sight
Fighting with you over the silliest thing
And the next you know is we're smiling :)
Getting to know you better everyday
Teasing you & then slightly touching your face

All these things just make me love you
And the best thing is that you love me too.
I'm here
You're here
Make the sorrows disappear
I can feel it
You can too
Love is forever & it's true.

Answering your silliest questions
Crying on your shoulder in depression
Winking at you the way you like it ;)
Staring at you without blinking a bit
Missing these moments when you are'nt around

All these things just make me love you
And the best thing is that you love me too.

Whispering "love you" when mom's around
And when I speak normally, you say, "Don't be loud!"
Pulling your leg & then making a sorry face
Sitting together, nothing to do, eating 'lay's
Sitting through a boring movie, just to be with you
Watchin formula 1 races, something I would never do.

All these things just make me love you
And the best thing is that you love me too.

Sitting at the beach, talking for hours
Goinf=g for a ride in your big white car
Hugging you tight to make myself feel complete
Keeping all your messages, not even one do I delete.

Seeing yourself through my eyes
Is a totally different view for you
'Cos one thing you'll realise
You are just too good to be true!
Why else do you think I'm so crazily in love with you!♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

You don't deserve

When you walked out of my life
You left it hanging on a knife
Didn't know what to do, to go which side
Had no idea about wrong or right

All that I could see was darkness
Nothing could ever clear all the mess
My life seemed like an endless tunnel
No remote control & hence stuck on a channel.

Love is blind, they say, it is true
I never did notice the flaws in you
And when I sat to think what went wrong
I could connect the dots & revelations came along.

Your heart was wandering
When you said you gave it to me
It was the biggest lie
That you cared & you loved me
I found love in those wicked eyes
How stupid could I be!

And of one thing I'm sure at this curve
A person like you does not deserve

All my tears
Which could flood a river
All my time
When I thought about you & shivered
All my attempts To get back to you
Thinking I was at fault too,
All my trust
I had on you
All the care & love for you.
No, you don't deserve.

Now I wont think once or twice
But a 100 times if I want to be wise.
My trust & love are guarded now
Wont free them easily, hereby I vow.

And now the tunnel has ended
Have the remote control at hand
The sun is back & the flowers are blooming
While it used to be a barren land.

I don't believe

Every time I see your lovely face
I walk down the memory lane
There are memories that well up my eys
To relive them I could even die.

I had thought you are the one for me
My prince charming only you could be
Then my fate slapped me hard and said
Life is not a fairy tale.
And now I don’t believe in love
No matter what you say.

I gave away my heart and soul
Just to be retuned in thousand pieces
But can you ever return those lovely moments
And the hugs and kisses?
I believed every word
You said that pleasant day
And now I don’t believe in love
No matter what you say.

Every promise that you made
Was meant to be broken
If I had known this before
In this trench I wouldn’t have fallen.
All the mesmerising feelings
I am keeping away.
And now I don’t believe in love
No matter what you say.

I got tickled all over
By every simple touch
And then everything else that followed
Meant just too much.
I closed my eyes and thought about it
As on my bed I lay.
And now I don’t believe in love
No matter what you say.

After all the tears I shed
To one conclusion they have led.
The love bug gets to one and all.
But in my case it never reaches the other side of the wall.
I have now locked all the doors after such a fall
And now I don’t believe in love, not at all.

heartbreak kid

I am the heartbreak kid

Newly born in town

Unaware of those clumsy feelings

Which keep bringing me down.

You said those words

& they hit like a bullet

Pierced through my heart

& tears were all set.

You kept asking if I’m fine

I kept lying, faking a smile.

I know it wasn’t easy for you

Then why did you ever have to?

I wet my pillow & wake up with a start

Thinking it’s a bad dream

But, “No, it’s not” says my heart.

Trudging along I met my friends

Even their best advices could not put an end.

The worst part was seeing you each day

Unable to forget you

Unable to hate you

Knowing not what to do,

Since I am the heartbreak kid

Newly born in town unaware of these clumsy feelings

Which keep bringing me down.

With the dawn of dusk,

I resolve to get over you

And the morning brings back everything

All that I had dumped away too.

While flowers prick like thorns

Love songs thud like car horns.

I keep myself going

Thinking this will be over soon

But my dreams claim the opposite,

That I’ll love you till doom.

You’ve giving me no reason to hate

Making things tough, a dreadful fate.

I am the heartbreak kid

It has been ages since I was born.

I still get those clumsy feelings

And I wonder when they’ll be gone.

To the life inside me

A s I strolled in the garden leaning against blossoming trees

I closed my eyes and heard the rumble of the water and humming of the bees.

Having walked for long as I sat near the fountain,

The reflection in the water reminded me of the joy

As tall as a mountain.

I saw my growing body as each day passed,

My bundle of joy was coming but it won’t last

I felt you growing inside me,

Such a lovely feeling it is

I wish I could keep you inside me

Oh! This is just bliss!

My child! Look at these lilies, the roses & daisies.

Can you hear the birds calling out to their babies?

Once you start seeing this world with your own tiny eyes,

I will not be there, but my baby, don’t ever cry.

For, they’ll love you a lot.

Even more than I can.

Caring will be your mother

And a great father will be that man.

Every time that I think of the moment they’ll cut the cord

It tears my heart and shatters me, Why oh why, my lord?

So easily people advice,

“Mary, this is the way of life.”

I’m giving you up for selfish needs,

Oh butcher, kill me with your knife

This isn’t as easy, as I had thought it would be.

I should now return to lord ‘cos anger is creeping in me.

You are holding on to my heart beats and once you are out

I’ll surrender to my Lord so will never have to doubt,

As to who caressed you inside her and then met a solemn death.

All your prayers my Lord will answer but this will always be a secret.